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[Jun. 15th, 2005|10:44 am] |
alright some of you might already know this weve been keeping it a secret for a little while now.. but..
I GOT MARRIED<3
wish me luck |
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[Feb. 12th, 2005|10:41 pm] |
wow i havent been on this thing in fucking forever. so many things have changed i was reading other peoples post and people have changed so much.. crazy.. so things are going amazing for me. i have my own apt. im in school and im in a really really serious relationship..its great his name is shelden harper and hes from f'hope. hes great weve been together for about 8 mounths now. i miss all my old friends i was looking back on post that i wrote in here and at the end of almost all of them i would say something about paige or callie or maghan and its sad cuz i never even get to talk to any of those people anymore i never get to talk to anyone im always busey.. but yeah if you people still read these things hope all is going well and luh you guys..
<3333333333333333
Ashleigh |
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[Oct. 25th, 2004|01:37 am] |
havent updated this in a while. things have changed alot with me. lots of crazy shits been going on but im doing well for the most part im in school witch is so relaveing and 2morrow im getting a new car i cant waite im sick of havening a auv to top heavy for the way i make my turns. i wanna meet new people move away something different..im bored with things in this town ive been here to long.its time for a change...
yep so i guess ill do to the normal thing and sit by the phone waiteing on you to call..why do i love you so much<3 |
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| ...if you see anyone from my familey and thay say hey do me a favor and keep walking |
[Jun. 12th, 2004|11:32 am] |
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Pale September, I wore the time like a dress that year
The autumn days swung soft around me, like cotton on my skin
But as the embers of the summer lost their breath and disappeared
My heart went cold and only hollow rhythms resounded from within
But then he rose, brilliant as the moon in full
And sank in the burrows of my keep
And all my armour falling down, in a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep
He goes along just as a water lily
Gentle on the surface of his thoughts his body floats
Unweighed down by passion or intensity
Yet unaware of he depth upon which he coasts
And he finds a home in me
For what misfortune sows, he knows my touch will reap
And all my armour failing down, in a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep
All my armour falling down, in a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep |
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| ..back in b'ham<3 |
[Mar. 8th, 2004|11:54 am] |
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me and tina decided to come back to b'ham but we arent staying all week again we're only staying tell wensday..6 DAYS TELL MY BDAY!!yay im excited. well im out |
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| <3 |
[Mar. 7th, 2004|12:55 am] |
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| [ | music |
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i think hes slowly fadeing out of my life and yet i rember everything and every momeny i was with him,savoring his very move,smile and kiss.i never thought a person could be so precious to me.he was so beautiful,it hurt to look at him.but now it hurts to think of him.i memorized his face:dark eyebrows amazing brown eyes,tousled hair.HIS HANDS, tan and strong.i had never loved anyone else this way.i love him.the fisrt time i saw him,i stood there quietly,drinking him in.and when i finally had him, i was almost in tears stood there holding him, breathing in his scent with my face pressed agenst his shirt. i knew i didnt want to let go.i cried bitterly the final day i let him go.i tasted the salt as i wept, feeling so angrey at the world and at life.i had found my love.i sigh as i rember theses painfull memories,but i dont cry. i have no tears left for him.they say true love last foever. i dont know the exact defintion of it, but i know that ive never been that close to it.hes gone now, and my dreams have been shatterd by the harsh reality of the situation.i thought we were ment to be together.guess not.when he left, he took a piece of my heart with him.for a while,i couldnt eat or sleep.i felt so sick and empty. i didnt think id be able to go without him.as i look back now, i see that it was a time of mourning. i didnt think the hurt would ever end.then, this morning i woke up, and the sick feeling in my stomach was gone. i knew that i was going to be ok,that i no longer need him.as i look bck now, the only thing he ever gave me that ill be able to carry with me forever is the discoovery of my inner strenth. it will carry me through all the pain, all the hurt,and i will survie.i had it in me the hole time, i just couldnt quite find it. i smile as i rember him<3 |
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| ...forget my name-forget my face |
[Mar. 5th, 2004|04:35 pm] |
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to the cunfused little boy that needs to grow THE FUCK UP!
FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!
i dont know why you lie and why you do the things you do i dont know if thats ur way of showing that you love me but damn im sick of it im trying to stay stress free and careing about you stresses me out really bad.:( i love you but i cant do this anymore.. |
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| ...<3 |
[Mar. 2nd, 2004|11:53 am] |
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last night was THESHIT! went to the AFI Thursday and Coheed and Cambria show it was amazing i had a blast we got there late and the line to get on the floor was super long but somehow we ended up getting on the rail it was so much fun i have bruses from the baricade on my tum tum:( it was rough after words we met some cool guys and we went with them and hung out for a while and then i came home and me and tina munched out and passed out<333333
paige i miss you and i wish you would have been there |
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[Feb. 26th, 2004|12:24 am] |
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haha things have been GREAT!! i got to see sean today i was so happy i missed him he went to girls gone wild last night haha thats the shit. i miss kreden (i need sum cady girl luven so you need to come home and give me sum<3333)tonight me and tina were climbing a fence and it was one of those kinds thats joins together with 2 back yards butseperates the two houses and i didnt know that and i climbed up the very end of one and fliped over into the other yard and fell in the mudd... it sucked but it was SOOOOO funny!!!!!!the lady that lived there came out side bitchen and yellen at us cuz 'she lives alone and we scared her and she can hear our hole conversation from her room' she was telling us to leave but icouldnt get up and tina couldnt stop laughing.. it was soo funny!!!and so dark.. good times..
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nite!!!!xoxoxoxo |
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| ..haha paige i have a 6th grade crush 2<3 and it's the SHIT! |
[Feb. 17th, 2004|01:20 am] |
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so tonight was the shit.today i did homeschool work and alot of it<3 yay for me.tonight me bumpers adam and roger went to the burry your dead show the way up there was fun listen to roger and bumps sing 80's ''rock''. i had fun im glad i got to hang w/ roger cuz i havent really talked to him much lately.and of course hangen with bump is always the shit and adam pretty much just sat there. so ya..anyways the show awsome as always burry your dead did amazing and i got to see the guys again witch was really cool me and their new rodie mike are ganna go BARGEN SHOPPING! and me and mark hung out witch was the shit we walked to whater buger and chilled and just talked then i came back to daphne and me sean and tina went to eat waffle house and i just got home and now im about to go take a really hot bubble bath and snuggle up to my new rabit and toots<3
Callie-what the fuck dude we so need to go to the mall i love you baybe
Paige-im so sorry about everything thats happen and i miss you so much!i love you with all my heart and i dont want you to ever forget that! |
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| ..what's the point in valintines day???it's so lame |
[Feb. 15th, 2004|03:09 pm] |
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this weekend was fun.. i did alot of nothing just hanging out.. i got to see maghan friday.. yaya i miss her..kreden and sean spent the night well krden did sean was pose to but he left at like 3 in the morning for sum reason.. silly boi..and last night i baby sat and watched my sister in law get drunk for the first time it was awsome. she was being sooo funny.and then tina came and spent the night.. and todya me and my sister in law went to the mall and i got a buncha new shit<3 welp off the take a shower<3 |
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| ..i was to scared to call you and tell you happy valintines day |
[Feb. 15th, 2004|01:55 pm] |
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i hate valintines day. its boring and no fun. tonight i get to baby sit.i guess thats cool i love chrisitan shes fucking the shit.my mom is out of town..AGAIN. hmm im starting to miss her.. sean and kristen spent the nightlast night it was fun we went to Maghans house and i got to hang out with her i miss her alot.
im over at callies right now and were just hanging out cuz we havent seen each other in a while aw i love callie we baked a cake. well she did i just watched her<3 i cant cook=(..we went out to lunch that was fun we went to el'rancho havent been there in a while everytime i go there it remindes me of clay...(hope ur happy in bham) i think that tina is ganna come stay with me after shes done with jeffrey tonight so i dont have to be scared all alone in my big scary house<333333 |
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[Feb. 12th, 2004|02:16 pm] |
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called me out you stayed inside one you love is where you hide shot me down as i flew by crash and burn i think sometimes you forget where the heart is answer no to these questions let her go learn a leasson its not me youre not listening now cant you see somethings missing you forget where the heart is take you away from this empty apartment you stay and forget where the heart is someday if you ever loved me youd say its ok waking up from this nightmare hows your life whats it like there is it all what you want it to be does it hurt when you think about me and how broken my heart is its ok to be angry and never let go it only gets harder the more that you know when you get lonely if no ones around you know that ill catch you when youre falling fown we came together but you left alone and i know how it feels to walk out on your own maybe someday i will see you again and youll look at me in my eyes and call me your friend |
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| ..i miss our snaps |
[Feb. 11th, 2004|09:20 pm] |
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i was at blockbuster today and i passed by legally blond 2 and it made me think of you.i miss you so much that its driveing me crazy everytime i walk in my room i look at my bull-a-tin bord and i see all these pictures of us and think of how much fun we use to have.how excited we were when ur dad put up the swing so that we could sit on it and swing and talk and laugh and giggle about the dumbest things.i rember over the summer the night you were so sad and the grass was wet in ur back yard so we laid down towels and laid on them and looked at the stars and talked and then i held you when you cryed.i miss you.my mom always told me that this was the time when you'd see ur friends start to change and when you start looseing them.when she said i told you so the other day i started to cry cuz i never thought you'd be the friend i'd lose.i miss you. i miss play fighting with you and i miss our chyk flick movie nights. i miss the way you scream really loud in a high pitch voice when you got really excited about something.i miss laying in ur room watchen you have O.C.D. and clean everything even things that were clean and didnt need to be cleaned again but you still fucken scrubed.i miss our late night talks.i miss all our secrets and i miss haveing you around.i hate that all this happen and i'm sorry that it did but i wont you to know theres not a day that goes by that i think of all the amazing times we spent together and how amazing our friendship and our love for each other was.i love you with all my heart and i miss you more and more everyday....\
cence i got home things have been pretty good.one un-nessary thing thats ganna lead to alot of drama and alot of stress that im trying to ignore but its not working.just give me time and i'll get back ta ya<3 |
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[Feb. 4th, 2004|09:59 pm] |
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im so relaxed i really needed this away time.I DONT WANNA COME HOME! i miss everyone well not everyone but i miss some people but i dont miss daphne. i wish i could just take a few people with me here and never look back.ohwell i cant run away from this shit i have to deal with it. im done through with everything. no more bullshit. im getting my shit together.<3333 |
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[Jan. 24th, 2004|02:30 am] |
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lately things have been so good. me and my mom are getting along now thats the shit.im so glad that all this drama bullshit is over with.things have been going soooo smooth.im starting to grow up and see so many things and relize so many things that i so needed to see.its the shit.last night i spent the night withc callie we went through a bunch of old pictures of all the people we use to hang out with wow me and callie have been friends for so fucking long it doesnt seem like its been as long as it has its crazy seeing all these old pics of me and all these people i use to hang out with and thinking about how thay were then and how thay are now and how much so many of them have changed wow.damn im bullshitting my ass off.im out<3 |
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[Jan. 21st, 2004|01:43 pm] |
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| | Alanis Morissette | ] |
How long before you screw it up
How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up
With everything I do for you
The least you can do is keep quiet
Be a good girl
You've gotta try a little harder
That simply wasn't good enough
To make us proud
I'll live through you
I'll make you what I never was
If you're the best, then maybe so am I
Compared to him, compared to her
I'm doing this for your own damn good
You'll make up for what I blew
What's the problem...why are you crying |
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| ...when you said best friends that means friends forever |
[Jan. 11th, 2004|07:23 pm] |
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...take another drink and drive yourself home i hope theres ice all over the roads and maybe you'll think of me when you forget to put on ur seat belt and again when ur head goes through the windsheld |
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[Jan. 8th, 2004|09:13 pm] |
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paige i miss you way to much im so glad that i got to see you<3happy birthday baby
this weekend is ganna suck. im getting the hell out of this town 2morrow thank god.im going to bham to the bright eyes show and my mom wants to move closer to her brother and i wanna be closer to my brother in atlanta so i think we may move to bham i dunno if i really wanna yet but well see how things go.saturday is ganna suck its paiges 16th bday and im not going to be able to see her or talk to her or tell her happy bday or anything.:( i miss her. my mom got me tickets to the afi thursday and coheed and cambra show march 1st thats ganna be the shit. im glad that theres finally alot of good conerts comeing around here lately.aight well ima off to the shower<3
i love you paige.. happy bday |
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